My love

My heart hurts when you leave, and feels great when your around.
We speak to each other but never make a sound.

She is perfection; she is my personal angel.
I hope that my angel, will never say farewell.

She loves me and stays true to her word.
Leaving her would just be absurd.

She makes my life such a pleasure.
She is my priceless treasure.

I told myself that love was an impossibility.
But now is my only reality.

I told myself that it was to great of a price.
Now it is like having my own pair of rigged dice.

I took away the gamble of forever.
And made it my truth, just for her.

I will stick around for all eternity.
All because of my love for thee.

Everything she does is simply amazing.
Her soul is oh so satisfying.

I cannot live without my angel.
A life without her would be my hell.

She is the purpose to my existence.
Everything else is just hateful resistance.

I vow to try and make her life great.
For this is my only fate.

My sun would not rise, if she was not alive.
I would just go to the cliffs, and prepare to dive.

I would be in constant suffering till the day I die.
These words I speak now will never be a lie.

Everything becomes harder when she is not with me.
It is like my soul has been burned to the third degree.

She is the cure to my disease, that I must constantly take.
I would long to be in a coma, and never wish to awake.

Good thing she is in my life, now and forever.
Loving her is a pleasurable endeavour.

She is my angel, and she is worth fighting for.
She makes pain, and suffering easy to ignore.

She inspires me to try my best.
She is my love, the goal to my quest.

I fight the endless fight, just for my sweetheart.
For her soul, is a truly beautiful piece of art.

I thought beauty like hers could not exist.
Her beauty is do pure and true, this I insist.

I thought there was no such thing as a soul mate.
Now I have her, I know she was worth the wait.

I thought no one could thrill me with conversation.
I realize now that she is my only salvation.

She contradicts everything I thought about life.
I know this woman will someday be my wife.

I love how her eyes can just stare into my soul.
Then she just observes me, and demands no toll.

I love the words she says, and the way she thinks.
Everything about her makes my stress sink.

Perfection is the only logical word that sums her up.
The lord would be grateful if she drank from his cup.

Aleshia DeLaurier, my love till the end of infinity.
I was blind before her, but with her love I can see.

The unjustified curse

He is a mistake floating through time.
Punished; but never committed a crime.

He is moving; going from place to place.
But he is disgusted; never showing his face.

He will roam this world alone forever.
His soul is diseased; it will never get better.

He was innocent, but the judge sealed his fate.
Now he will punish, and hate till his expiration date.

His mind screams “the wicked do not sleep”.
These thoughts he will forever keep.

It is a curious thing, his self-loathing hate.
Now he stands at the door of hells gate.

He screams a challenge toward the dark lord.
As he reaches for his unholy sword.

“I did not barter my soul, my parents did!”
“This is something the lord's law forbids!”

“I do not follow the words of your master!”
“I am the Devil, the lord of disaster!”

“I take whatever soul I please!”
“Now bow before me!”

He feels no obligation to bow today.
He will fill the Devil with hate and decay.

He did not back down from the Devils command.
Which alone is something that is truly grand.

Now with fear the Devil says “ lets make a deal”.
Now he is confused, because this feels surreal.

“I can give you back your soul for a price?”
“What do you propose; be precise!?”

“I will give you your soul for another's life?'
“I cannot give another a life of strife!”

Now he is confused as to what he wants.
All he can hear now are his demons taunts.

“You are just like your father boy.”
This is just another of the Devil's ploys.

“He was cursed just like you.”
“But I made his soul anew”

“His holy gift became, my horrible curse!”
“To accept your gift, would be really perverse!”

“The sins of the father, die with the son.”
“This will never be undone!”

He just puts his blade away and leaves the Devil alone.
His true name will never be known.

He marched back to the world above.
He died alone never feeling love.

But he never gave up his integrity.
And he stopped feeling self pity.

He was a hero to a being that never came to be.
The curse he kept, so others will be free.

The complexities of love

What is love? Throughout my life I have been told that love never stops, and it is something eternal, but through personal experiences, and observation I learnt it can end as quickly as it started. It scares me to think that the eternal flame that I was told to cherish, can be quickly snuffed for no particular reason. Love is something that you cannot control, and it is something you cannot manufacture; it just exists. Can one actually ever fall out of love though? One might argue that the couple never felt love, and tried to expand their feelings too quickly thus by doing so, they made their souls have an emotional bankruptcy. Some might even argue that love is just two people saying that I can deal with you, and I appreciate your personality, but there is a point where you can't deal with the person anymore, so you fall out of love. It could even be a chemical response, and when the good chemical are done, the love stops. I would like to believe that love is a balance of everything I just listed, but the only difference is that the couple has to genuinely want strive to keep their love alive, instead of just letting it die quickly in the cold night of loneliness.

Which leads me to my second thought that ties into the subject of love; how does one tell the difference between love and lust? Both are feelings that everyone can experience, but most never really can tell which is which. Some believe that lust is the beginning of love, but in reality lust is just a sexual longing for a person. While love might have sexual longing, but there has to be a point were you satisfied intellectually by the person before you commit to your sexual desires. This is obviously a dilemma that is often experienced by adolescents, because a lot assume that when one has a sexual longing for someone they must be in love. So, they jump into hardcore relationships, with no actual logical base to it, so when the feeling of sexual desire leaves, they are left with feelings of resentment, and dislike towards their past sexual partner.

The point to this I guess is to show people that not everyone my age is a mindless slave following a strange emotional doctrine that leads them to get into trouble. Also I wanted to give my opinion on such a widely talked about issue like this. To sum up everything I have been saying, I guess it would have to be this, love can be an eternal thing, but only when one nurtures it and treats it with respect, and that lust can do harm to ones soul, so build an emotional base before you jump into sexual activities. You only live such a short life, so do not fill it with unneeded emotional pain when you are young, wait till you can accurately make decisions, then find your love.

Thoughts of a writer

During this week I have seen and heard many different things, most of them upsetting, but they all have the ability to yield good results. Throughout life everyone has to live with their fair share of regrets, and disappointment. Would you alter the past though in order for those actions to disappear? I would love to give everyone the ability to get rid of one of their biggest regrets in their life, but who is to say that once they get rid of that regret, they wont make another regret of equal or greater value? Life has many lessons but does one really have to go through all of them? Does a girl have to get beaten by a boyfriend to know that it is something she should avoid? Does a person have to see their best friend die young to know that life is short? Does a child have to be molested by a family member to know that you can't fully trust anyone? I just wish that I could make the biggest problems in anyone’s life disappear, but yet let them keep the lessons from those things, so they never have to relive those issues. I can't change those things though, so the only thing we can do as people is to try and grow from those horrible moments, and not let those things govern your life.

In order to grow though you have to confront your problem instead of ignoring it, and keeping it inside. The longer you keep those issues inside, the more dangerous of a hateful cancer it becomes. First you hate the regret; then you hate yourself; then you hate everyone who "failed" to help you, or guide you though it; then eventually you start to hate everyone in sight. I know it is hard to tell someone about your regret, but it is better to tell someone, than just hurting yourself by keeping it inside of your head. Someone is always willing to help, let it be a family member, a friend, or a close person like a teacher, or a co-worker. Do not hurt yourself more by holding information, let yourself begin to heal.