I realized something.

The thing I realized today is that I am luckier than most when it comes to friends. My whole life I felt sad ,and believe I had no friends, and no one liked me. In reality though I had a bunch of people I could joke around with, and relate too. I was too naive to see that most likely because I was just another unintentional teen age stereotype. I always thought a friend is someone you can trust absoulutely, but in reality a friend is someone you can talk to, and be interested. I wasted my time though searching for the trusting friend, that I neglected my true friends. I became a man that manufactured his own hell, but never realized it till I was already to far inside my madness.